Being Alive.

Ask the one been heart broken How hard is it to move on Tell me why am i emotional When i knew it from the start? All this time you left me wanting more Wonder where this part you keep me from was Burned down into million pieces with smile Now, tell me why my heart burns when I see your face every time My moon is shallow and gloomy tonight I thought i saw you and sun was coming up again Again in my life to light up days I can see my faith and counting my days again I will be waiting all my life Give the taste of that life again Give those morning texts, So I can smile again, make me feel loved 

They said never to trust I failed to understand Gave you my heart With blind-folded eyes Taken for granted and used I was fool to play in your drama In this game of love I am nothing but failure Betrayal comes from loved ones You never failed to prove that Excellent your performance Drowned my love deep down I have failed the tug of war again Couldn’t afford to stand there and watch Watch myself falling every single second Would have died for you If you didn’t fucked me over. 

Know your habit and love Won't let me forget ever You don't understand my love Neither will you understand me You want to compare me with Other shit guys your friends have Say I don't love you I dare you again I wish I could write it down in words For you to understand my love Can't you see I am trying every single day? Just to see that pretty smile on your face Will you ever think about me If I Walk away? Or would you just think "it’s for the best" I wonder love what can I do to make you happy So I can see that heaven I seek in your face again

Messed it up when I had chances Here I am wishing I could re-do it again I know I shouldn’t have said those things But then you know I am just amateur I see you fading away every single moment I have so many things I want to say I just don’t know how to put in words You always knew I was never good with words Expressing my feeling is not cup of my tea I want us to be together now and forever You are the girl I want to spend my rest of my life with Person I want to wake up and see by my side I know things were different but i am changed man now You are all I ever wanted in my life Smartest you are then why do you act like kid Can’t you see pain in my eyes? Those unspoken words still hunt me down Just because I don’t know how to explain it to you I just wish you could read me like book Figure it out what I am going through You choose someone else over me I wish I was happy with it But then my heart just doesn’t want to feel the same

I am up late night again Can’t go back to bed at all I can hear whispers in my mind Now I have become what  You can’t embrace at all No time can erase your memory They will become my lullaby Let me catch my breath once more Remind me how it feels like again Those sad songs are my daily dose Melodies are stuck in my head Feels like all of em are written for me Yet i would do anything for you I have become so shallow Can’t recognize myself these days You were light to my shadow Where are you now? These monsters inside me Are growing day by day I am here under the light Yet i am fading away

Its hard when you know someone you care about doesn't care about you anymore.  its harder when you see them  with someone else right in front of you. I guess moving away from you was hard but trying not to think about you every single day is harder. you often cross my mind on silly little things  we used to do or i imagine how it would be when we meet in future. Even Though its just my imagination i feel sad to imagine you with anyone else than me  which isn't suppose to happen.  I swear i have told myself to forget about you  but sometimes things  just doesn't work the way i want. I always thought i am strong,  way strong until i realize  i am the weak one here. Forgetting  you  you wasn't suppose to be hard, moreover getting over you should be piece of cake But i am still dealing with it as it's first day