Being Alive.

Middle of night, I can’t go to sleep Messed up life without destination I can’t see path ahead Restlessness taking over my life Those wolfs by lonely forest are howling Shivered to take next step Sometimes I wish there was someone Someone to guide me through Someone to say it’s alright, I am just a kid trying to figure out How am I suppose to live this life If I have no idea how to live it I can’t find anyone to shout out Suffocating thinking about everything I need shoulder to lay my head on And a hand to hold when I am low To be person by my side Help me through ups and downs Oh love, where are you? I am all alone in this world without you. Hope to meet you soon and explain all about this So that u can listen like a kid With no idea what I am talking about.

They said, it's better late than never All I gotta say is “it’s too late now” Tried to give you the best of me But now I wonder whether u got Best or fool of me I tried everything I possibly could To make our relationship work But all I got for my work Was loneliness and broken heart There was time when i would Give anything for you word But the time is long gone And now all i can say for you Is to move on like u said to me Time and tide waits for no one So i did change with time And i am glad i was finally able To say same shit u said to me I am no longer the one you used to know I have changed myself over years Learned to live my life the way i wanted Where there is no place for you Happier i was when i was with you But i also learned to put up smile Gave up on everything that i had And you gave up on me Though i have love for you in my heart I can’t walk the same road again Knowing there is no good end to it

I wish i could see you once again Feel the warmth of your hearth Hear those mesmerizing words Coming out of those sweet lips I wish i could re-live those days again Where hugs and kisses meant world to us Couldn’t ask anything more than your company  we were there when the earth stood still The world was in black and white While we stood colourful in front of em Love is the only word we knew We would curl up as two body infused in one soul There was my way of seeing heaven in earth Hold my hand one more time Let me feel the life again And call me “BABU “for one last time

Every single night i lay down in my bed Trying to sleep, forcing my eyes to shut Pictures and memories of you Starts flooding in my brain Like stream and rivers in some wild forest I start remembering every moment with you  Where we were happy like a small child We didn’t ask anything more than each other company Time has passed so much now I might have grown taller  Lost my hair and lost some weight But i am still the same person you loved Every time those memories start flooding i can’t help it but to smile at them Still the place we used to meet Fits us perfectly like it used to I see you trying to grow inside me Inside my thought, inside my heart again Seems like the more time and distance You try to put between us More closer you grow in my heart.

I loved a goodbye  not knowing i will be hurt, i  felt so cold when you are gone i kept my heart for sale knowing it will be used, Teared apart and  screwed like its nothing, trying hard every single to collect those pieces trying to move on,  get over you twisted my brain, broken my heart trying to figure out how to get out of this alive and breathing those smiles i had has faded away,  people i used to spend time are no longer around this loneliness is just getting hard  to handle every single day i don't even know whether  to curse it or embrace it i just spend another day with bottle and hoe at bar and my cigarettes are running one after another  trying to forget her i wonder whether  it's same with her or she is already living her life because you cross you mind every single second.

You show interest out of nowhere then u say it doesn't matter to you i can't think whether to believe your word or your action you seems so fine with everything then why do u complain in twisted words why can't you just come straight to me and say u still care about me baby, i am loosing my mind here just trying to figure you out. Help me here oh almighty but honestly i have nothing to lose or gain thinking about you, memories are best i can get from you oh baby, just tell me what you want and i will do best i can to fulfill it.

i can't sleep at night you are still here with me and i feel you you that doesn't feel right sometime i wish for resurrection and be with you on next life We’ve let each other go But my mind still intervenes can't seem to let you go can't seem to remember you i just can't get you out of mind things that i have to go through feels like i can't breathe, heavy head, light breathing is just another day in this hell i gave you happiness This is what u have payed me with! oh love, you are just another  girl i failed to see in time being.

You always asked reasons to love you But i never had answers for those questions Now, you are gone and i can see you changing Feels like i don’t know you anymore I loved you for the lovely heart you had Not the cold hearted person you have become I loved caring part of you Not the one who uses harsh word I loved a girl who knew how to make love Not the one who doesn’t look back at me I loved the girl who promised to be together till the end Not the liar that you are now I want to adore and preserve those memories Memories where i see you as perfect person I don’t want to remember or see current you While the earth is rotating every single day So u have changed with 700 turns of life But why am i the only who is still stuck in past.

I am up late night again Can’t go back to bed at all I can hear whispers in my mind Now I have become what  You can’t embrace at all No time can erase your memory They will become my lullaby Let me catch my breath once more Remind me how it feels like again Those sad songs are my daily dose Melodies are stuck in my head Feels like all of em are written for me Yet i would do anything for you I have become so shallow Can’t recognize myself these days You were light to my shadow Where are you now? These monsters inside me Are growing day by day I am here under the light Yet i am fading away

You always asked reasons to love you But i never had answers for those questions Now, you are gone and i can see you changing Feels like i don’t know you anymore I loved you for the lovely heart you had Not the cold hearted person you have become I loved caring part of you Not the one who uses harsh word I loved a girl who knew how to make love Not the one who doesn’t look back at me I loved the girl who promised to be together till the end Not the liar that you are now I want to adore and preserve those memories Memories where i see you as perfect person I don’t want to remember or see current you While the earth is rotating every single day So u have changed with 700 turns of life But why am i the only who is still stuck in past.

In this game of love,he  couldnt win the war couldnt make any difference in her feeling one more time he lost the tug of war she is celebrating her victory victory where she crushed another heart she took sovenier of love as his crushed heart what can he do take back what he have lost? while she is celebrating her victory the man next to table calls him a sober man who used to enjoy his  time is left all alone now not that he wanted but he have to everything that he had is gone he believed those fake word coming out of her mouth thought those were the only thing that could make him feel alive fake promises and  lies is the only things he got places he loved now have memories of her small little silly things remind him ,how they used to be he is sitting all alone wondering if this will ever change now afraid to be hurt again, he tries to smile again those thing he have been through is just hell on earth trying to get out of misery and smile again painting thos

They said, its better late than never All I gotta say is “it’s too late now” Tried to give you the best of me But now I wonder whether u got Best or fool of me I tried everything I possibly could To make our relationship work But all I got for my work Was loneliness and broken heart There was time when i would Give anything for you word But the time is long gone And now all i can say for you Is to move on like u said to me Time and tide waits for no one So i did change with time And i am glad i was finally able To say same shit u said to me I am no longer the one you used to know I have changed myself over years Learned to live my life the way i wanted Where there is no place for you Happier i was when i was with you But i also learned to put up smile Gave up on everything that i had And you gave up on me Though i have love for you in my heart I can’t walk the same road again Knowing there is no good end to it

Among all those people in this earth you the one who cross my path talking with you every single day makes things easy to handle you are there to comfort me in my hard times just listening to me while i blabber about the pain or just my anger on someone I don't know if i can ask anything more than that you share my highs and lows Sharing my pain, my happiness is little easy to go on every day oh stranger, now we are sharing a special bond I don't think i can go a day without talking with you you are lighting up my life with colors again making me feel like there is no one else like me i smile like idiots on your silly jokes you call me with most useless name but that doesn't hurt no more feels like i am back to world once more oh stranger, i don't know if i will be able to meet you ever in this life. But i just wanna take a second of my life to thank you from bottom my heart for being there.

Look at those stars shining all bright like there wont be sun coming up tomorrow you love, was the sun of my life now are you gone all i have got is dark promised to be with me till the end now i look at my side i don't see you there where are you love? what are you doing? don't you miss me, like i do? oh love, come back to me this life seems to be incomplete without you. doesn't matter whether its middle of night or sunny bright day light you are always in my mind, its like i can't think of anything else than you I thought we were gonna last together forever blinded by love or your fake words i didn't see what was coming Now, i am paying it back with broken heart missing you all the time, hoping it to end and make out alive oh love, why do i miss you so much when i have hundreds of reason of smile oh love, explain me why i care about you? when i can care about people who cares for me. Maybe that's why people say" love is 7th sen

Messed it up when I had chances Here I am wishing I could re-do it again I know I shouldn’t have said those things But then you know I am just amateur I see you fading away every single moment I have so many things I want to say I just don’t know how to put in words You always knew I was never good with words Expressing my feeling is not cup of my tea I want us to be together now and forever You are the girl I want to spend my rest of my life with Person I want to wake up and see by my side I know things were different but i am changed man now You are all I ever wanted in my life Smartest you are then why do you act like kid Can’t you see pain in my eyes? Those unspoken words still hunt me down Just because I don’t know how to explain it to you I just wish you could read me like book Figure it out what I am going through You choose someone else over me I wish I was happy with it But then my heart just doesn’t want to feel the same