Being Alive.

They said never to trust I failed to understand Gave you my heart With blind-folded eyes Taken for granted and used I was fool to play in your drama In this game of love I am nothing but failure Betrayal comes from loved ones You never failed to prove that Excellent your performance Drowned my love deep down I have failed the tug of war again Couldn’t afford to stand there and watch Watch myself falling every single second Would have died for you If you didn’t fucked me over. 

Know your habit and love Won't let me forget ever You don't understand my love Neither will you understand me You want to compare me with Other shit guys your friends have Say I don't love you I dare you again I wish I could write it down in words For you to understand my love Can't you see I am trying every single day? Just to see that pretty smile on your face Will you ever think about me If I Walk away? Or would you just think "it’s for the best" I wonder love what can I do to make you happy So I can see that heaven I seek in your face again

Messed it up when I had chances Here I am wishing I could re-do it again I know I shouldn’t have said those things But then you know I am just amateur I see you fading away every single moment I have so many things I want to say I just don’t know how to put in words You always knew I was never good with words Expressing my feeling is not cup of my tea I want us to be together now and forever You are the girl I want to spend my rest of my life with Person I want to wake up and see by my side I know things were different but i am changed man now You are all I ever wanted in my life Smartest you are then why do you act like kid Can’t you see pain in my eyes? Those unspoken words still hunt me down Just because I don’t know how to explain it to you I just wish you could read me like book Figure it out what I am going through You choose someone else over me I wish I was happy with it But then my heart just doesn’t want to feel the same

I am up late night again Can’t go back to bed at all I can hear whispers in my mind Now I have become what  You can’t embrace at all No time can erase your memory They will become my lullaby Let me catch my breath once more Remind me how it feels like again Those sad songs are my daily dose Melodies are stuck in my head Feels like all of em are written for me Yet i would do anything for you I have become so shallow Can’t recognize myself these days You were light to my shadow Where are you now? These monsters inside me Are growing day by day I am here under the light Yet i am fading away

Its hard when you know someone you care about doesn't care about you anymore.  its harder when you see them  with someone else right in front of you. I guess moving away from you was hard but trying not to think about you every single day is harder. you often cross my mind on silly little things  we used to do or i imagine how it would be when we meet in future. Even Though its just my imagination i feel sad to imagine you with anyone else than me  which isn't suppose to happen.  I swear i have told myself to forget about you  but sometimes things  just doesn't work the way i want. I always thought i am strong,  way strong until i realize  i am the weak one here. Forgetting  you  you wasn't suppose to be hard, moreover getting over you should be piece of cake But i am still dealing with it as it's first day

They said never to trust I failed to understand Gave you my heart With blindfolded eyes Taken for granted and used I was fool to play in your drama In this game of love I am nothing but failure Betrayal comes from loved ones You never failed to prove that Excellent your performance Drowned my love deep down I have failed the tug of war again Couldn’t afford to stand there and watch Watch myself falling every single second Would have died for you If you didn’t fuck me over. 

They said, its better late than never All I got to say is “it’s too late now” Tried to give you the best of me But now I wonder whether u got Best or fool of me I tried everything I possibly could To make our relationship work But all I got for my work Was loneliness and broken heart There was time when i would Give anything for you word But the time is long gone And now all i can say for you Is to move on like u said to me Time and tide waits for no one So i did change with time And i am glad i was finally able To say same shit u said to me I am no longer the one you used to know I have changed myself over years Learned to live my life the way i wanted Where there is no place for you Happier i was when i was with you But i also learned to put up smile Gave up on everything that i had And you gave up on me Though i have love for you in my heart I can’t walk the same road again Knowing there is no good end to it

I can feel it coming Deep down in my heart I can feel the love Love those voices in my head There is nothing i want More than you in my life. Those games you play Are working on me Maybe just because i don’t Have those tricks off my sleeve Touching my broken heart Making it whole again You wanna fix me everyday I don’t know whether It’s your love or sympathy I am letting it flow as it should be Waiting for end of this relationship Find out how its turns out Is it worth my fighting? Or waste of my time. I have been hurt and used That strength in me is gone I am just broken guy Who is willing to take a risk again Risk to see if i can smile again.

They said, its better late than never All I got to say is “it’s too late now” Tried to give you the best of me But now I wonder whether u got Best or fool of me I tried everything I possibly could To make our relationship work But all I got for my work Was loneliness and broken heart There was time when i would Give anything for you word But the time is long gone And now all i can say for you Is to move on like u said to me Time and tide waits for no one So i did change with time And i am glad i was finally able To say same shit u said to me I am no longer the one you used to know I have changed myself over years Learned to live my life the way i wanted Where there is no place for you Happier i was when i was with you But i also learned to put up smile Gave up on everything that i had And you gave up on me Though i have love for you in my heart I can’t walk the same road again Knowing there is no good end to it

You show interest out of nowhere then u say it doesn't matter to you i can't think whether to believe your word or your action you seems so fine  with everything then why do u complain in twisted words why can't you just come straight to me and say u still care about me baby, i am loosing my mind here just trying to figure you out. Help me here oh almighty but honestly i have nothing to loose or gain thinking about you,  memories are best i can get from you oh baby, just tell me what you want and i will do best i can to fulfill it.

I am not denying the fact I am just a guy who enjoys Living all alone, having his space When he wants it Friends question me all the time Why am I the way I am I have no answer then to Just nod or smile at em Feels like its been forever Where I could actually trust anyone I enjoy my own space, Around the things i love the most I don’t need to rely on anyone There is no sign of weakness No one bug or to ruin my space Blissful evening and peaceful morning Is what I seek everyday 

Life is about to take a turn Where i would be with The one i am destined to be with Wondering how she would be Sometimes i keep on thinking about How would  i treat her? Or what she would be like Whether she would be geek or random person How will we live our life together? Wherever you are, whoever you are All i can think about is you Feels like i have fallen in with you Just with your name I wish i could meet you really soon And embrace you in warmth of my heart Where no one else matters You and me , just us!

Here is the thing, I know i can't let you go , but I keep on trying I know I can't forget you but I have nothing better than to try every single day. I think i have forgotten  you completely and i have moved on but you are still in mind whenever i am  abit free. you are the person i think about and wonder what would happen if we were together in future. I want us to be together no matter where i am or what i am doing, but at the same time i also need to convince myself that you are never coming back to me. i have read " hardest decision in life is whether to give up or try harder", i have reached somewhere at the same point and i have no idea what to do. I think i am over you but i still compare every girl i talk to with you every time i come to conclusion that you are way better than she is. Sometime i wish i could format my brain but at the same time i adore those memory i have had with you. All i know is you are the best thing t

You were/are so sweet, Innocent and pure, but, I never got to tell you how much I loved you I never got to hold you I never got to kiss you I never got to hug you never got to rock you to sleep and sing to you I lost so much of me when I lost you you have a place in my heart and always will I wish I could of gotten to hold ur hand to teach you how to walk to teach you how to talk But I never got to You are now a beautiful soul watching over your brother and I God wanted a small miracle that was strong and small and he got one I will always love you no matter what I know you're in a better place now but it still hurts as much as when I found out I lost my unborn baby Mackenzii Clark

It's hard when you know someone you care about doesn't care about you anymore it's harder when you see them with someone else right in front of you I guess moving away from you was hard but trying not to think about you every single day is harder you often cross my mind on silly little things we used to do or I imagine how it would be when we meet in future Even Though it's just my imagination I feel sad to imagine you with anyone else than me which isn't suppose to happen I swear i have told myself to forget about you but sometimes things  just doesn't work the way i want I always thought i am strong way strong until i realize i am the weak one here Forgetting  you  you wasn't suppose to be hard more over getting over you should be piece of cake but i am still dealing with it I wish time will come when i don't think about when i wake up or before going to sleep I know i have been out with other girls as well but i still cant g

I was told you can conquer anything if you wait for the right time feels like what they said is legit i can feel myself conquering over what i wanted all my life sober and broken guy i was now conquering what i wanted i am at top of the world today love that been taken away from me is coming back to me Times i spent crying is finally paid off i am gonna feel her again in my arm i can feel the warmth of her beating heart Love that i lost long time ago is coming back to me once again

It's hard when you know someone you care about doesn't care about you anymore. it's harder when you see them with someone else right in front of you. I guess moving away from you was hard but trying not to think about you every single day is harder. you often cross my mind on silly little things we used to do or i imagine how it would be when we meet in future. Even Though it's just my imagination  i feel sad to imagine you with anyone else than me which isn't suppose to happen. I swear i have told myself to forget about you but sometimes things  just doesn't work the way i want. I always thought i am strong, way strong until i realize i am the weak one here. Forgetting  you  you wasn't suppose to be hard, moreover getting over you should be piece of cake but i am still dealing with it. I wish time will come when i don't think about when i wake up or before going to sleep. I know i have been out with other girls as well but i still cant get you off m

Departed my Soul,  crushed my heart i am in the middle of nowhere those memories ain't going to disappear i thought i can't live without you i am smiling love  but i have this hollow heart it's hard to handle  this overwhelming and never fading sadness that's laying down deep down in my heart What can i do for this?  why don't you explain it to me you are living your life  while i am here trying to forget you lighting out one cigarettes after another a bottle of whisky seems to be less and the girl standing at corner of bar is just another person who is smiling about her life. Everytime i close my eyes those flashes of memory i have had with you starts flowing like stream  flowing down the hill and deep down i feel the same sorrow again like its the first day oh love what have paid  me back for my never ending love for you?

Middle of night, I can’t go to sleep Messed up life without destination I can’t see path ahead Restlessness taking over my life Those wolfs by lonely forest are howling Shivered to take next step Sometimes I wish there was someone Someone to guide me through Someone to say it’s alright, I am just a kid trying to figure out How am I suppose to live this life If I have no idea how to live it I can’t find anyone to shout out Suffocating thinking about everything I need shoulder to lay my head on And a hand to hold when I am low To be person by my side Help me through ups and downs Oh love, where are you? I am all alone in this world without you. Hope to meet you soon and explain all about this So that u can listen like a kid With no idea what I am talking about.

They said, it's better late than never All I gotta say is “it’s too late now” Tried to give you the best of me But now I wonder whether u got Best or fool of me I tried everything I possibly could To make our relationship work But all I got for my work Was loneliness and broken heart There was time when i would Give anything for you word But the time is long gone And now all i can say for you Is to move on like u said to me Time and tide waits for no one So i did change with time And i am glad i was finally able To say same shit u said to me I am no longer the one you used to know I have changed myself over years Learned to live my life the way i wanted Where there is no place for you Happier i was when i was with you But i also learned to put up smile Gave up on everything that i had And you gave up on me Though i have love for you in my heart I can’t walk the same road again Knowing there is no good end to it

I wish i could see you once again Feel the warmth of your hearth Hear those mesmerizing words Coming out of those sweet lips I wish i could re-live those days again Where hugs and kisses meant world to us Couldn’t ask anything more than your company  we were there when the earth stood still The world was in black and white While we stood colourful in front of em Love is the only word we knew We would curl up as two body infused in one soul There was my way of seeing heaven in earth Hold my hand one more time Let me feel the life again And call me “BABU “for one last time

Every single night i lay down in my bed Trying to sleep, forcing my eyes to shut Pictures and memories of you Starts flooding in my brain Like stream and rivers in some wild forest I start remembering every moment with you  Where we were happy like a small child We didn’t ask anything more than each other company Time has passed so much now I might have grown taller  Lost my hair and lost some weight But i am still the same person you loved Every time those memories start flooding i can’t help it but to smile at them Still the place we used to meet Fits us perfectly like it used to I see you trying to grow inside me Inside my thought, inside my heart again Seems like the more time and distance You try to put between us More closer you grow in my heart.

I loved a goodbye  not knowing i will be hurt, i  felt so cold when you are gone i kept my heart for sale knowing it will be used, Teared apart and  screwed like its nothing, trying hard every single to collect those pieces trying to move on,  get over you twisted my brain, broken my heart trying to figure out how to get out of this alive and breathing those smiles i had has faded away,  people i used to spend time are no longer around this loneliness is just getting hard  to handle every single day i don't even know whether  to curse it or embrace it i just spend another day with bottle and hoe at bar and my cigarettes are running one after another  trying to forget her i wonder whether  it's same with her or she is already living her life because you cross you mind every single second.

You show interest out of nowhere then u say it doesn't matter to you i can't think whether to believe your word or your action you seems so fine with everything then why do u complain in twisted words why can't you just come straight to me and say u still care about me baby, i am loosing my mind here just trying to figure you out. Help me here oh almighty but honestly i have nothing to lose or gain thinking about you, memories are best i can get from you oh baby, just tell me what you want and i will do best i can to fulfill it.

i can't sleep at night you are still here with me and i feel you you that doesn't feel right sometime i wish for resurrection and be with you on next life We’ve let each other go But my mind still intervenes can't seem to let you go can't seem to remember you i just can't get you out of mind things that i have to go through feels like i can't breathe, heavy head, light breathing is just another day in this hell i gave you happiness This is what u have payed me with! oh love, you are just another  girl i failed to see in time being.

You always asked reasons to love you But i never had answers for those questions Now, you are gone and i can see you changing Feels like i don’t know you anymore I loved you for the lovely heart you had Not the cold hearted person you have become I loved caring part of you Not the one who uses harsh word I loved a girl who knew how to make love Not the one who doesn’t look back at me I loved the girl who promised to be together till the end Not the liar that you are now I want to adore and preserve those memories Memories where i see you as perfect person I don’t want to remember or see current you While the earth is rotating every single day So u have changed with 700 turns of life But why am i the only who is still stuck in past.

I am up late night again Can’t go back to bed at all I can hear whispers in my mind Now I have become what  You can’t embrace at all No time can erase your memory They will become my lullaby Let me catch my breath once more Remind me how it feels like again Those sad songs are my daily dose Melodies are stuck in my head Feels like all of em are written for me Yet i would do anything for you I have become so shallow Can’t recognize myself these days You were light to my shadow Where are you now? These monsters inside me Are growing day by day I am here under the light Yet i am fading away

You always asked reasons to love you But i never had answers for those questions Now, you are gone and i can see you changing Feels like i don’t know you anymore I loved you for the lovely heart you had Not the cold hearted person you have become I loved caring part of you Not the one who uses harsh word I loved a girl who knew how to make love Not the one who doesn’t look back at me I loved the girl who promised to be together till the end Not the liar that you are now I want to adore and preserve those memories Memories where i see you as perfect person I don’t want to remember or see current you While the earth is rotating every single day So u have changed with 700 turns of life But why am i the only who is still stuck in past.

In this game of love,he  couldnt win the war couldnt make any difference in her feeling one more time he lost the tug of war she is celebrating her victory victory where she crushed another heart she took sovenier of love as his crushed heart what can he do take back what he have lost? while she is celebrating her victory the man next to table calls him a sober man who used to enjoy his  time is left all alone now not that he wanted but he have to everything that he had is gone he believed those fake word coming out of her mouth thought those were the only thing that could make him feel alive fake promises and  lies is the only things he got places he loved now have memories of her small little silly things remind him ,how they used to be he is sitting all alone wondering if this will ever change now afraid to be hurt again, he tries to smile again those thing he have been through is just hell on earth trying to get out of misery and smile again painting thos

They said, its better late than never All I gotta say is “it’s too late now” Tried to give you the best of me But now I wonder whether u got Best or fool of me I tried everything I possibly could To make our relationship work But all I got for my work Was loneliness and broken heart There was time when i would Give anything for you word But the time is long gone And now all i can say for you Is to move on like u said to me Time and tide waits for no one So i did change with time And i am glad i was finally able To say same shit u said to me I am no longer the one you used to know I have changed myself over years Learned to live my life the way i wanted Where there is no place for you Happier i was when i was with you But i also learned to put up smile Gave up on everything that i had And you gave up on me Though i have love for you in my heart I can’t walk the same road again Knowing there is no good end to it

Among all those people in this earth you the one who cross my path talking with you every single day makes things easy to handle you are there to comfort me in my hard times just listening to me while i blabber about the pain or just my anger on someone I don't know if i can ask anything more than that you share my highs and lows Sharing my pain, my happiness is little easy to go on every day oh stranger, now we are sharing a special bond I don't think i can go a day without talking with you you are lighting up my life with colors again making me feel like there is no one else like me i smile like idiots on your silly jokes you call me with most useless name but that doesn't hurt no more feels like i am back to world once more oh stranger, i don't know if i will be able to meet you ever in this life. But i just wanna take a second of my life to thank you from bottom my heart for being there.

Look at those stars shining all bright like there wont be sun coming up tomorrow you love, was the sun of my life now are you gone all i have got is dark promised to be with me till the end now i look at my side i don't see you there where are you love? what are you doing? don't you miss me, like i do? oh love, come back to me this life seems to be incomplete without you. doesn't matter whether its middle of night or sunny bright day light you are always in my mind, its like i can't think of anything else than you I thought we were gonna last together forever blinded by love or your fake words i didn't see what was coming Now, i am paying it back with broken heart missing you all the time, hoping it to end and make out alive oh love, why do i miss you so much when i have hundreds of reason of smile oh love, explain me why i care about you? when i can care about people who cares for me. Maybe that's why people say" love is 7th sen

Messed it up when I had chances Here I am wishing I could re-do it again I know I shouldn’t have said those things But then you know I am just amateur I see you fading away every single moment I have so many things I want to say I just don’t know how to put in words You always knew I was never good with words Expressing my feeling is not cup of my tea I want us to be together now and forever You are the girl I want to spend my rest of my life with Person I want to wake up and see by my side I know things were different but i am changed man now You are all I ever wanted in my life Smartest you are then why do you act like kid Can’t you see pain in my eyes? Those unspoken words still hunt me down Just because I don’t know how to explain it to you I just wish you could read me like book Figure it out what I am going through You choose someone else over me I wish I was happy with it But then my heart just doesn’t want to feel the same

This madness is over my head, Best that i was hoping mine , is no longer with me , or never was mine Those cute little things , you used to do still hunts me down every single day Lonely night with flooding memories Is Hardest things to handle for me Dates and places playing game with me I remember every single time we spent together Like it was just yesterday I would like to lie myself to say that you are mine but then reality reminds me side of my bed is empty That cold heart of yours is best thing i have had i go back to time every single second and i would do  anything to re-live it again Because you are the best thing ever happened to me It's my mind that hears what i want to hear it's my heart that gets lost in world of imagination of you and me being together again I thought i was stronger one among us but guess i have never been so wrong as i am still struggling getting over you Every things around me have memories with you That wont just fa

Bed seems to be bigger for me now Dimmed those lights, lightened up my smoke I watch those smoke pass by While i spend another sleepless night I keep saying i don’t need lover I am fine the way i am But deep down i am just waiting for you I can’t deny what my heart wants Am i the only one with sleepless night Mind full of thoughts and hollow heart I just can’t keep up with everything Feels like i am lost within my own fight I don’t belong in this bed While i am the victim of broken heart I light up my cigarettes one after another Just to forget everything for awhile Early morning hangover are harder To deal with day by day Whisky in my aching bone Cant take it anymore I think its time you free me From this misery and sadness Let me feel your breathe one last time Before i curl up and die...

Asked to leave you once And I did it without second thought You asked me to never call you I had no option than to stop I wanted to try but then You closed most of them gate one by one I don’t know whether I am going crazy Or everything is just screwing me All I wanted was warmth of your hug Not this lonely nights and overwhelming sadness You promised you will be there for me No matter what happens When I was in need, I never could see you there One of plate in my table is still empty Missing and thinking about you Is like my daily schedule every single day I wish we didn’t end up like we did Those silence tears and unspoken words Are killing me every second I wish we never met sometime but Then I adore those memories with you Those silly little things I loved about you Still haunts me down Nothing feels good when you are not around Maybe this is what they call one sided love As I loved you with whole of my heart And all I

Among all those people in this earth you the one who cross my path talking with you every single day makes things easy to handle you are there to comfort me in my hard times just listening to me while i blabber about the pain or just my anger on someone I don't know if i can ask anything more than that you share my highs and lows Sharing my pain, my happiness is little easy to go on every day oh stranger, now we are sharing a special bond I don't think i can go a day without talking with you you are lighting up my life with colors again making me feel like there is no one else like me i smile like idiots on your silly jokes you call me with most useless name but that doesn't hurt no more feels like i am back to world once more oh stranger, i don't know if i will be able to meet you ever in this life. But i just wanna take a second of my life to thank you from bottom my heart for being there.

In this game of love,he  couldn't win the war couldn't make any difference in her feeling one more time he lost the tug of war she is celebrating her victory victory where she crushed another heart she took souvenir of love as his crushed heart what can he do take back what he have lost? while she is celebrating her victory the man next to table calls him a sober man who used to enjoy his  time is left all alone now not that he wanted but he have to everything that he had is gone he believed those fake word coming out of her mouth thought those were the only thing that could make him feel alive fake promises and  lies is the only things he got places he loved now have memories of her small little silly things remind him ,how they used to be he is sitting all alone wondering if this will ever change now afraid to be hurt again, he tries to smile again those thing he have been through is just hell on earth trying to get out of mysery and smile again pai

Middle of night, I can’t go to sleep Messed up life without destination I can’t see path ahead Restlessness taking over my life Those wolfs by, lonely forest are howling Shivering to take next step Sometimes I wish there was someone Someone to guide me through Someone to say it’s alright, I am just a kid trying to figure out How am I suppose to live this life If I have no idea how to live it I can’t find anyone to shout out Suffocating thinking about everything I need shoulder to lay my head on And a hand to hold when I am low To be person by my side Help me through ups and downs Oh love, where are you? I am all alone in this world without you. Hope to meet you soon and explain all about this So that u can listen like a kid With no idea what I am talking about.