Being Alive.

Know your habit and love Won't let me forget ever You don't understand my love Neither will you understand me You want to compare me with Other shit guys your friends have Say I don't love you I dare you again I wish I could write it down in words For you to understand my love Can't you see I am trying every single day? Just to see that pretty smile on your face Will you ever think about me If I Walk away? Or would you just think "it’s for the best" I wonder love what can I do to make you happy So I can see that heaven I seek in your face again

Messed it up when I had chances Here I am wishing I could re-do it again I know I shouldn’t have said those things But then you know I am just amateur I see you fading away every single moment I have so many things I want to say I just don’t know how to put in words You always knew I was never good with words Expressing my feeling is not cup of my tea I want us to be together now and forever You are the girl I want to spend my rest of my life with Person I want to wake up and see by my side I know things were different but i am changed man now You are all I ever wanted in my life Smartest you are then why do you act like kid Can’t you see pain in my eyes? Those unspoken words still hunt me down Just because I don’t know how to explain it to you I just wish you could read me like book Figure it out what I am going through You choose someone else over me I wish I was happy with it But then my heart just doesn’t want to feel the same

I am up late night again Can’t go back to bed at all I can hear whispers in my mind Now I have become what  You can’t embrace at all No time can erase your memory They will become my lullaby Let me catch my breath once more Remind me how it feels like again Those sad songs are my daily dose Melodies are stuck in my head Feels like all of em are written for me Yet i would do anything for you I have become so shallow Can’t recognize myself these days You were light to my shadow Where are you now? These monsters inside me Are growing day by day I am here under the light Yet i am fading away

Its hard when you know someone you care about doesn't care about you anymore.  its harder when you see them  with someone else right in front of you. I guess moving away from you was hard but trying not to think about you every single day is harder. you often cross my mind on silly little things  we used to do or i imagine how it would be when we meet in future. Even Though its just my imagination i feel sad to imagine you with anyone else than me  which isn't suppose to happen.  I swear i have told myself to forget about you  but sometimes things  just doesn't work the way i want. I always thought i am strong,  way strong until i realize  i am the weak one here. Forgetting  you  you wasn't suppose to be hard, moreover getting over you should be piece of cake But i am still dealing with it as it's first day

They said never to trust I failed to understand Gave you my heart With blindfolded eyes Taken for granted and used I was fool to play in your drama In this game of love I am nothing but failure Betrayal comes from loved ones You never failed to prove that Excellent your performance Drowned my love deep down I have failed the tug of war again Couldn’t afford to stand there and watch Watch myself falling every single second Would have died for you If you didn’t fuck me over. 

They said, its better late than never All I got to say is “it’s too late now” Tried to give you the best of me But now I wonder whether u got Best or fool of me I tried everything I possibly could To make our relationship work But all I got for my work Was loneliness and broken heart There was time when i would Give anything for you word But the time is long gone And now all i can say for you Is to move on like u said to me Time and tide waits for no one So i did change with time And i am glad i was finally able To say same shit u said to me I am no longer the one you used to know I have changed myself over years Learned to live my life the way i wanted Where there is no place for you Happier i was when i was with you But i also learned to put up smile Gave up on everything that i had And you gave up on me Though i have love for you in my heart I can’t walk the same road again Knowing there is no good end to it