Being Alive.

I can feel it coming Deep down in my heart I can feel the love Love those voices in my head There is nothing i want More than you in my life. Those games you play Are working on me Maybe just because i don’t Have those tricks off my sleeve Touching my broken heart Making it whole again You wanna fix me everyday I don’t know whether It’s your love or sympathy I am letting it flow as it should be Waiting for end of this relationship Find out how its turns out Is it worth my fighting? Or waste of my time. I have been hurt and used That strength in me is gone I am just broken guy Who is willing to take a risk again Risk to see if i can smile again.

They said, its better late than never All I got to say is “it’s too late now” Tried to give you the best of me But now I wonder whether u got Best or fool of me I tried everything I possibly could To make our relationship work But all I got for my work Was loneliness and broken heart There was time when i would Give anything for you word But the time is long gone And now all i can say for you Is to move on like u said to me Time and tide waits for no one So i did change with time And i am glad i was finally able To say same shit u said to me I am no longer the one you used to know I have changed myself over years Learned to live my life the way i wanted Where there is no place for you Happier i was when i was with you But i also learned to put up smile Gave up on everything that i had And you gave up on me Though i have love for you in my heart I can’t walk the same road again Knowing there is no good end to it

You show interest out of nowhere then u say it doesn't matter to you i can't think whether to believe your word or your action you seems so fine  with everything then why do u complain in twisted words why can't you just come straight to me and say u still care about me baby, i am loosing my mind here just trying to figure you out. Help me here oh almighty but honestly i have nothing to loose or gain thinking about you,  memories are best i can get from you oh baby, just tell me what you want and i will do best i can to fulfill it.

I am not denying the fact I am just a guy who enjoys Living all alone, having his space When he wants it Friends question me all the time Why am I the way I am I have no answer then to Just nod or smile at em Feels like its been forever Where I could actually trust anyone I enjoy my own space, Around the things i love the most I don’t need to rely on anyone There is no sign of weakness No one bug or to ruin my space Blissful evening and peaceful morning Is what I seek everyday 

Life is about to take a turn Where i would be with The one i am destined to be with Wondering how she would be Sometimes i keep on thinking about How would  i treat her? Or what she would be like Whether she would be geek or random person How will we live our life together? Wherever you are, whoever you are All i can think about is you Feels like i have fallen in with you Just with your name I wish i could meet you really soon And embrace you in warmth of my heart Where no one else matters You and me , just us!

Here is the thing, I know i can't let you go , but I keep on trying I know I can't forget you but I have nothing better than to try every single day. I think i have forgotten  you completely and i have moved on but you are still in mind whenever i am  abit free. you are the person i think about and wonder what would happen if we were together in future. I want us to be together no matter where i am or what i am doing, but at the same time i also need to convince myself that you are never coming back to me. i have read " hardest decision in life is whether to give up or try harder", i have reached somewhere at the same point and i have no idea what to do. I think i am over you but i still compare every girl i talk to with you every time i come to conclusion that you are way better than she is. Sometime i wish i could format my brain but at the same time i adore those memory i have had with you. All i know is you are the best thing t

You were/are so sweet, Innocent and pure, but, I never got to tell you how much I loved you I never got to hold you I never got to kiss you I never got to hug you never got to rock you to sleep and sing to you I lost so much of me when I lost you you have a place in my heart and always will I wish I could of gotten to hold ur hand to teach you how to walk to teach you how to talk But I never got to You are now a beautiful soul watching over your brother and I God wanted a small miracle that was strong and small and he got one I will always love you no matter what I know you're in a better place now but it still hurts as much as when I found out I lost my unborn baby Mackenzii Clark

It's hard when you know someone you care about doesn't care about you anymore it's harder when you see them with someone else right in front of you I guess moving away from you was hard but trying not to think about you every single day is harder you often cross my mind on silly little things we used to do or I imagine how it would be when we meet in future Even Though it's just my imagination I feel sad to imagine you with anyone else than me which isn't suppose to happen I swear i have told myself to forget about you but sometimes things  just doesn't work the way i want I always thought i am strong way strong until i realize i am the weak one here Forgetting  you  you wasn't suppose to be hard more over getting over you should be piece of cake but i am still dealing with it I wish time will come when i don't think about when i wake up or before going to sleep I know i have been out with other girls as well but i still cant g

I was told you can conquer anything if you wait for the right time feels like what they said is legit i can feel myself conquering over what i wanted all my life sober and broken guy i was now conquering what i wanted i am at top of the world today love that been taken away from me is coming back to me Times i spent crying is finally paid off i am gonna feel her again in my arm i can feel the warmth of her beating heart Love that i lost long time ago is coming back to me once again

It's hard when you know someone you care about doesn't care about you anymore. it's harder when you see them with someone else right in front of you. I guess moving away from you was hard but trying not to think about you every single day is harder. you often cross my mind on silly little things we used to do or i imagine how it would be when we meet in future. Even Though it's just my imagination  i feel sad to imagine you with anyone else than me which isn't suppose to happen. I swear i have told myself to forget about you but sometimes things  just doesn't work the way i want. I always thought i am strong, way strong until i realize i am the weak one here. Forgetting  you  you wasn't suppose to be hard, moreover getting over you should be piece of cake but i am still dealing with it. I wish time will come when i don't think about when i wake up or before going to sleep. I know i have been out with other girls as well but i still cant get you off m

Departed my Soul,  crushed my heart i am in the middle of nowhere those memories ain't going to disappear i thought i can't live without you i am smiling love  but i have this hollow heart it's hard to handle  this overwhelming and never fading sadness that's laying down deep down in my heart What can i do for this?  why don't you explain it to me you are living your life  while i am here trying to forget you lighting out one cigarettes after another a bottle of whisky seems to be less and the girl standing at corner of bar is just another person who is smiling about her life. Everytime i close my eyes those flashes of memory i have had with you starts flowing like stream  flowing down the hill and deep down i feel the same sorrow again like its the first day oh love what have paid  me back for my never ending love for you?